I stress myself out with my inability to react normally to certain situations wahhhh.
AND I HAVE AN ESSAY DUE IN AT 12 TOMORROW AND HAVEN’T STARTED IT
Stupid bop and stupid Grinch face paint that has left me a sludgy green colour all over my neck
Just going to rant away because I want to get this out of my system but don’t want to mention certain specific things….
Annoyed at myself that I’m not okay with the things that most people my age are. People can say that ‘it’s okay not to be okay with it’ … And I completely agree with it, but to the extent that I don’t think I’ll ever be fine with even small things is a bit rubbish.
And also feel a bit meh that I have told someone here all of this which is quite a big thing given that I’ve only known them for 7 weeks or so and to me it seems like they think they can change me … As though it’s something I’m just not that fussed on rather than something I seem to be incapable of.
In some ways I appreciate it because they’re the most lovely person ever and tbh maybe what I need is someone that tries to gradually make me fine with stuff, but I just wahhh. I don’t even know what my point is anymore.
I AM SO SLEEPY
and I need to sort myself out.
I really really like it here but part of me would just like a week back home and the chance to do nothing for a day and not feel bad about it.